I remember her, that girl that wanted to disappear. She didn’t want anyone to notice her. She didn’t want to engage conversation with anyone. She most certainly did not want to make eye contact with anyone. What did she want? She wanted to be looked over, passed up, forgotten. She did not believe she was worthy to be loved. She wanted to be invisible.

How do I know all of these things about “her”? You see, that she … was me.

Ten years ago I was sixty-three pounds heavier. I had battled divorce, a near fatal car crash, PTSD, a child with a TBI and PTSD, depression, anxiety, the death of my mother, and the obvious result… sadness, loneliness, and the most obvious weight gain. I survived on diet soda and breath mints. When I did eat it was all the wrong stuff and way too much at one time, and it was destroying my body, destroying my mind and simply crushed my spirit.

If I am being totally honest and completely transparent, I was trusting God but not in ALL things or in ALL circumstances. I was destroying the temple He entrusted me with.

“Therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, I urge you to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God; this is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this age, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may discern what is the good, pleasing, and perfect will of God.” Romans 12:1-2 (HCSB)

Fast forward to now… God has delivered me from so many things and truly has restored in me what the locusts have eaten. He has grown my boys and given me an amazing God fearing man in my life who is now my husband.

I truly believe God could not heal me until I handed Him my pain, my heartbreak, my grief, my fear, my sadness, my everything. He could not heal me until I was ready and willing to hand Him my ashes.

“The Spirit of the Lord God is on Me, because the Lord has anointed Me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and freedom to the prisoners; to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor, and the day of our God’s vengeance; to comfort all who mourn, to provide for those who mourn in Zion; to give them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, festive oil instead of mourning, and splendid clothes instead of despair. And they will be called righteous trees, planted by the Lord to glorify Him.” Isaiah 61:1-3 (HCSB)

Today, you will see a happiness, a glow if-you-will. I am so blessed and yes, I truly am happy. Anything good you see in me is all Jesus. He is my deliverer. He is my restorer. He is my Great Physician, He is my biggest fan, He is my King and Father, and I am forever grateful.

(March 2018 “date night” with my husband Mark.)

If you’re a little like who I was or a lot like her, wanting to disappear or be invisible, please have hope. Trust and know God is working for the very best for you.

“We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God: those who are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28 (HCSB)

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

The promises of God are true. They are promises God has intentionally, strategically and lovingly planned and prepared for you! He is working circumstances out. He is putting key players in place. He is defeating the enemy on your behalf. He is restoring what the locusts have eaten.

Change is coming and the favor is yours my sisters and brothers. Tomorrow is a new day and I am believing with you that God will reveal hope in and through your circumstances, through your pain, and by your ashes.

So, as hard as it is… slowly release the tight grasp of your hands and watch with great expectancy as the blackened and charred remains scatter in the wind and God places stunning and breathtaking beauty where the ashes once were.

Jesus loves you so very much, as do we. We are praying for you and can’t wait to hear and see ALL God has for you in and through this season.

We love y’all!

Mark & Missy Williams

In response to The Daily Prompt: Invisible

Copyright © 2018 by Missy Williams All rights reserved.

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31 responses to “Invisible”

  1. What a beautiful testimony of God’s amazing grace. May the Lord bless your words. Thank you for commenting on my blog, for I have now seen your heart and it’s beautiful in deed. May the Lord reach other’s and set them free through your lives circumstances. God bless you, your blog and your family.

    • Oh friend, your words bless me and truly brightened my day…thank you! I pray the same blessing and favor over your words as well. I stand beside you believing God is using us to glow His Kingdom and glorify His name. May God continue to richly bless you and your family as well. ♥️

    • Awe, thank you friend. God brought us together after 35+ years. We knew each other as friends since I was 13, him 18. God is so, so good! Have a blessed Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday!🌸

      • Wow that is similar to me and my husband. We met in school when we were 11 years old and I moved 200 miles away and lost contact. We got back together 10 years ago.

      • That’s amazing! More similarities. Mark lived 1,100 miles away even after we got married. Our long distance courtship was appointed by God. He moved back to Texas two months after we wed. I love the love stories God creates in and through us. We are kindred spirits my friend. You made my day. I can’t wait to share with my husband. 💙😍

  2. Beautiful message here, Missy! 💐
    I lost 45 lbs when I did a no carbs diet in my 40’s. It was either that or go on anti-cholesterol meds. The Dr suggested diet first. My lbs were due to stress. Lots of bad stuff going on. Your post will bless many and change their outlook. 🦋

  3. Reblogged this on and commented:
    This is such a beautiful story i had to share it.

    It’s not just about faith. It’s about hope and not giving up.

    In the darkest times my friend tells me, “time changes, this will too”

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