February will forever and always conjure images of events and circumstances Jesus Christ brought me through and delivered me from just a few years ago. I don’t even really know where to begin. You see, February is a very special month for me in so many ways. You might be thinking because it’s Valentine’s Day, but if I am being transparent, shade is cast over that day compared to all I was preparing for and walking through. Just three short years ago and on this day in 2015 I was a single mother to three young boys/men, and in the morning hours underwent a double mastectomy and began the reconstruction process. I had chosen not to date anyone unless or until God brought him to me, so I was alone.
If I may back up a bit to December 2014. This is the day my life changed forever. My world was rocked. I was faced with the biggest trial that could potentially take my life. I received a phone call on a Friday evening from my doctor, “You have cancer.” She was reluctant to call me right before the weekend, but if it were her, she would want to know. Who would be happy to know they have cancer right? Well, I’m glad she called. I would rather know than be left wondering what and when the test results would come in.
Two of the hardest things I’ve had to do were to ask my best friend if she would raise my boys for me. And the other? Well, it was to tell my boys that their mom has breast cancer. Tears are pouring down my face as I recall it. Not so much for me, but for my imagination on what they must have been going through. What must they be thinking and feeling. I’ve never had to endure such news from my parents when they passed away at 84 and 89.
My other thought that pierced my heart, “No man will want me now.”. Who would want someone who’s been diagnosed with cancer, a cancer of any kind?
“Okay, well then, it’s just You and me God!”
It is by His hands my lymph nodes were negative, my margins and borders were clean, the tumor measured 1.3 cm (very small) rendering it Stage 1. The glory belongs to Him for He delivered me from breast cancer. As I fall at His feet, even and especially today, in reverence, I give the Lord ALL the glory. The strength, peace and love seen through me is ALL Him.
“Surely He will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.” Psalm 91:3-4(NIV)
I have walked through the fire of breast cancer holding His hand and skipping all the way. I did not get burned. I do not smell of smoke. I have been transformed through the fire, refined and completely set free.
It is true, “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9 (NASB). He was, He is, He always will be.
I would not trade this experience for anything. Every tender detail is just as He designed, just as He ordered it to be.
Crossing over Jordan I look back and see how much He truly loves me to save me from myself. Psalm 91
Power and Majesty – Praise to the King. He is glorious!
“So, do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34 NASB
I have received my miracle by faith according to His Word. I now can completely feel His love like never before. Jehovah Jireh my Provider, Jehovah Ropheka my Healer. Falling more and more in love with Him through each step, each new day, each breath I take. I am now the vessel He designed and called me to be.
Fast forward to Spring of 2016 when God brought back into my life Mark Williams in a very new and relevant role. Although our courtship separated us by 1,100 miles God confirmed our relationship. February 10, 2017 Mark, in front of a room full of strangers, got down on one knee and asked me to be his wife. That scared single woman was no longer. God placed before her a loving God-fearing man who would put her second, only to Christ. It’s a place I treasure greatly and he is who I prayed for even though I didn’t know who God would send.
Mark proposed to me February 10, 2017 and we were married June 2, 2017 all the while still living 1,100 miles apart. Two months after we were married God moved him back to Texas where we now live and serve Him faithfully with the most incredible and amazing God-fearing sisters, brothers and family. My words can’t adequately convey just how spoiled I feel living each day as I do. Not a day will go by, not a sunset will darken the sky without giving God the praise that He so richly deserves. I will fall short giving Him ALL that He deserves, but I will never stop trying.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
“The problems of today become weightless tomorrow.” J.Smith, February 2015
Forever living to Glorify Him, my Redeemer, my Healer, King Jesus.
I am living proof there is…
… beauty after ashes
… healing through fire
… love after loss
… life and life abundant
With my whole heart I want to thank each one of you personally. Your thoughts, encouragement, love, support, and prayers have lifted me up like I have never experienced before. I love you more than I can say and I will always remember your faithfulness. My children will always remember the outpouring of support and love you have shown to our family. Thank you for your generous spirit and provision. You bless me and my family.
And thank you to my loving husband Mark. Words can’t describe how much I appreciate and love you. You hold me accountable, pray over and with me, serve me and serve along side of me, and love me unconditionally. I’m honored, blessed and beyond privileged to spend the rest of my life serving with you. I love you babe💕. You truly have my whole heart.
I am living proof that our God is still a miracle working God.
God bless each of you!
In His love,
In response to The Daily Prompt – Conjure
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