Kicking and Screaming

Kicking and Screaming

Sitting in a sushi restaurant on a Friday, December 19, 2014 at 7:00 p.m. with my best friend Lisa… I got the call.-

Lisa & me

-It was my OB/GYN. She vacillated on whether or not to call being that it was a Friday night and all, but if it were her . . . she would want to know. Dr. Holly confirmed it. I have cancer.

I knew I was in for a ride of a lifetime.
Walking through a diagnosis of breast cancer changed my life spiritually, physically, mentally. When I was diagnosed with this disease, although highly curable for many, my thoughts immediately went to, “God, is this it?”, “How am I going to tell my boys?”, “Who’s going to care for me through this?”, “No man will want me now.” You see, I am a single woman and at the time had no Godly man of interest in my life… “How is this going to work?”

Abide– to wait for; to endure without yielding; to bear patiently; to accept without objection

Abide describes exactly what I was called to do. Whether I wanted to be obedient and walk willingly through this or go kicking and screaming digging in my heels.


God trusts me enough to walk me through this. I trust Him to deliver me from it. So, let’s do this.

God aligns just the right people at the perfect time. God gave me many especially through this precious time.

My prayer warrior, God-fearing sister Amy, my very best friend from 8th grade, gave me a card with a beautifully embossed amber and white feather. In it quoted Psalm 91.

Amy & me (then & now)

Psalm 91 is written in the first person, but I encourage you as you read it to allow the images to form. Make it personal and put yourself into the verses imagining it’s written just for you, because it is. 

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
    will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

This I declare about the Lord:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
 he is my God, and I trust him.

For he will rescue you from every trap
 and protect you from deadly disease.

He will cover you with his feathers.
  He will shelter you with his wings.
  His faithful promises are your armor and protection.

Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
    nor the arrow that flies in the day.

Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
 nor the disaster that strikes at midday.

Though a thousand fall at your side,
 though ten thousand are dying around you,
 these evils will not touch you.

Just open your eyes,
 and see how the wicked are punished.

If you make the Lord your refuge,
 if you make the Most High your shelter,

no evil will conquer you;
 no plague will come near your home.

For he will order his angels
 to protect you wherever you go.

They will hold you up with their hands
 so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.

You will trample upon lions and cobras;
 you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!

The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me.
  I will protect those who trust in my name.

When they call on me, I will answer;
 I will be with them in trouble.
 I will rescue and honor them.

I will reward them with a long life
 and give them my salvation.” Psalm 91 (NLT)

Which verse(s) created the most stirring in your spirit?

If a verse did create a peace in your heart I encourage you to commit it to memory. Trials will come and trials will pass, but having scripture written on your heart provides protection that lasts a lifetime and withstands all trials.

Find rest, abide and know…

He will rescue you. 
He will protect you. 
He will cover you. 
He will shelter you. 
He will order His angels to protect you. 
He will trample lions and cobras. 
He will crush lions and serpents. 
He will answer you. 
He will be with you in trouble.
He will rescue and honor you.
He will reward you with long life. 
He will give you salvation. 

He will do ALL this and more when you abide in Him.

Trust and believe this truth for your life as well. No matter your trial God will be there for you and do ALL He mentions in Psalm 91. He will provide abundantly above and beyond you could ask or imagine. He is faithful. 

Run to Him. He is waiting. 

P. S. For those of you who are my new friends and new to following my testimony, I have been and remain cancer free since my bilateral mastectomy on 2/12/15. Who took care of me? My blood sisters (Gigi & Drew), best friends/sisters (Amy, Lisa & Martha) and sisters & brothers in my church Celebration Church, and countless friends and coworkers.  

Lisa, Gigi, me, Cookie, Martha

P. S. S. As of a few months ago, I am in a God-fearing committed relationship with the love of my life Mark who deeply loves and faithfully serves the Lord as I do. God’s grace is sufficient. He is all we need and we choose to abide in Him through any and everything that comes before us both individually and together.

Missy & Mark

In His love,

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