Friday night studies. I will be honest, if I knew it would be this difficult I may not have done it. Okay, selfishly I absolutely would not have done it. You see, I’m dyslexic. I struggle with reading. Sometimes I have great anxiety over it, and reading comprehension ? well, that’s another animal all together.
“With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 (NIV)
From the beginning of my cancer diagnosis I told God that I know breast cancer is happening to me but I completely surrender to allow Him to use me, and “bc” for His glory.
God uses people around you. He strategically places the right people, at the right time and in the right circumstance to plant a seed, water, fertilize. He dropped it Amy’s spirit to nominate me to apply for Stephen Minister training in hopes of becoming one. It truly is one of those things that you like and really DISLIKE about your best friend of 36+ years. I knew she was right but I felt a bit like Esther when Mordecai begged and pleaded with her “.. to go into the king’s presence to beg for mercy and plead with him for her people.” Esther 4:8. All right, I know my surroundings and circumstance were not that dramatic but you understand I was really scared and didn’t know if I could do it. I knew God was calling me to it to help others and I absolutely know Amy honored God by acting on His prompting.
There are consequences and the opportunity for missed blessings by not saying yes to something greater He has called you to. I know I could not do it in my own strength but God asked me to trust Him with and through the process.
“For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?” Esther 4:14 (NIV)
I could have said no. I could have quit. If I had, I truly believe I would have missed an opportunity to serve God and give Him all the glory by helping others through very difficult trials. For this reason, and for the love, encouragement and support of my dear friends, leaders and mentors I continue.
It is our responsibility to reach out through our cancer, divorce, death and help others as quickly as we possibly can. Absolutely God understands the pain, sadness, emotions we feel as we walk through this messy life, however, it is not okay to stay there
Fast forward and I have three classes remaining before training is complete. Pushing hard through difficulty makes the victory all the sweeter. Come get your glory Lord.
Thank you Amy for being sensitive to the Holy Spirit and for seeing and believing in me when I was too scared to move. Thank you Jesus for bringing Amy into my life when we were 12, weaving our lives into a beautiful tapestry and growing us as sisters in You Lord. We love You and give You all the power, glory and honor that you so richly deserve.